Posted by: Lisa Gawlas | February 19, 2012

The Last of the Muck Coming Up!


It seems, since the moment my rock man Jorge came to shake me awake, I have been deep within my own processes… ummm… gunk ever since.  For the last couple days I have been flipping between just crying (yes those sad tears) and then moving into a place of melancholy until the next wave of tears came.

Those fears and worries laying deep at my ocean floor, completely disturbed and moved up to the surface!

Funny how we don’t notice the sediment at the bottom.  Those tiny specks that fell to the bottom of the emotional ocean thru all the clearings.

Yesterday within me was the most intense, I suppose.  My own energy field must have been pinging to beat the band, my computer kept completely turning off.  Finally, I checked the plug to see if something was the matter, it was so freakin hot.  I decided, not going near the computer for the day.  I took myself to the couch, put on Netflix, picked up solitare on my phone… and purged for the entire day (well, after my appointments of course…smile.)

Swallowing or ignoring those pesky fears simply create a thick sediment on our ocean floors… and for as long as there is sediment, there will be something in our lives to stir it up… for me, I suppose that is both February as well as Jorge!

I have got to smile at my own crazy inner processes… I am starting to recognize when I am making a major break thru within myself, I start thinking about leaving the earth and going back Home.  Happy to have been here, happy to leave here!

I even broke down and got out my pendulum… I haven’t done that since the first couple of days I moved into this new place.  I suppose I just wanted a visable way for Arch Angel to hold my hand, and the pendulum does that for me.  Of course, then I just wanted to kick him in his energetic hand!  He kept saying: “Live in the present and I always have your back.”  blah blah blah.

I suppose the day before gave way to the flood of yesterday within myself.  My sister sent me a facebook message that she has developed a new tumor in her body as well as a node in her lung.  Granted, I am not close to any of my siblings, haven’t been since I was 8 years old, but something about her news triggered the child within.  Then the adult had to ask, what the hell am I doing?

I am so far away from my blood family, kids included.  I have, for all intense and purposes, taken myself completely out of my old life to live a new.  Pissing off a lot of people that I love deeply.  My spirit took me back to the first couple months of realizing the depth of who we are thru my bathtub meditations.  Reminding me of what fueled my fire, my journey to here… I wanted to help humanity know… 11 years later, it is no longer just a burning desire, it’s a freakin volcano oozing lava lol.

I took a meditation shortly after spirit reminding me why I am doing what I am doing… (and I surely don’t even know what that is!! lol) and I pretty much cried in my tub.  And then, out of the pure light… Sananda showed up.  I have not had any aspect of my “team” individuate themselves in my meditation god, many years now.  So to say I was suprised would be an understatement.

He was carring this… clothe thingie that glowed of amazing white light.  I swear it reminding me of receiving the sacraments in Catholic Church.  He placed this clothe thing down on the corner of my bathtub, there must have been a bowl or something on it that I couldn’t see thru the radiance of the white light and he dipped his energetic finger in it, then made a plus sign on my forehead.

Of course, my catholic rebelion moved straight up to the surface and I asked him why are you doing that… I don’t want the sign of your pain and suffering on my forehead.  He said I did not make that kind of cross on you, he told me to think “southern cross and as above, so below.”

He then put my brow chakra into a clockwise spin and was gone.  Funny how my ow gunk was there even in that baffling moment… I was so pissed off for believing the catholic religion when I started to really learn the truth.  I was really pissed at me for believing something so blindly…

I have made my choices and will live with them.  99% of the time, it is a great energy within me… that freakin sediment tho… there is always a foot to kick it up… and it swirls around to be delt with. Dammit!

There is only one way I deal with my gunk… that is deep within myself.  Please forgive me if I cannot deal with your gunk too at the same time.  I have so many emails laying in my in-box… we are all going thru this moment in time.

Funny,  I had written about the February 15 dateline many many times… the releasing of all the ego gunk… well, I have been waist deep in mine.  I never even got the connection until today when I awoke.  Dah!!

I did listen to Arch Angel Michael tho… When I was out in tomorrows moment worrying about bills, I brought myself back to the couch, to netflix and my game of solitaire.  When I was thinking of yesterday, my sister, my parents, my own children… I brought myself back to the couch and anchored.

It really is amazing what clarity you can receive when you are not running amuck!

My core issue came zooming to the surface in an instant… not the fragments but the truth now staring me straight in the heart.  Failure.  Dammit!

Of course, the masked illusion comes from the fragments spinning in my brain: failure to pay my bills, failure to get my son talking to me again, failure to help my sister… that’s all particle from past and future… what is really happening in my present.

I don’t know how to plant seeds!  Not mass seeds.  To plop one seed in the ground today, then another tomorrow… really does throw everything off balance.  If you ever have done any gardening, you can understand this.  To put one seed in the ground each day, you would still be planting at harvest time.

There is a preciousness to staring your fear in the eyes.  It really makes you reach deep inside of yourself and pull from your strength.

I brought a rich and diverse skill-set to this place.  I have been groomed by the universe to be here… ready to put on my farmer Lisa clothes!

How did I forget about hypnosis?  Hell, I have had the book “Mass Dreams of the Future” (written by Chet B. Snow) in my mind for a couple weeks.  It is a book of hynosis experiences of clients he took into future potentials.

I thrive in group hypnosis.  Especially taking the group back Home to Spirit.  The experiences, information, transformations people come back with… changes me!

Once I let go… I got my new working orders (well, not orders, but insperation.)  Group hypnosis via skype.    I will be putting the page together later today on my site with full details and dates.  it will be on: www.mysoulcenter.com/seedsofshambhala.html

It is amazing how freeing life is when you look at your greatest fear and kiss it back into Heaven!!

I love you all soooooooo much!  Thank you for holding my hand and my heart thru this massive transformation that is tilling the soil of life from the heart out into created matter!  The field is ready and so are We!!!

((((HUGZ))))

Lisa Gawlas

www.mysoulcenter.com

 

 

 

I did take Arch Angel Michael’s

 

 


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  2. Dear Lisa,

    About “To put one seed in the ground each day, you would still be planting at harvest time.”:

    That sounds great to me.
    If you keep doing planting one seed after an other, once you start harvesting, you always can plant AND HARVEST at the same time !

    Thank you for the “Morning Light of Shambhala” post card 🙂

    Love&Light
    Stefan

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    • Ohhhhh Stefan ((((HUGZ)))) Ya know, I just picked up the letter you included with my chocolate and huge part of Germany (that rock…smile) yesterday, so it is wonder-filled to see you today!!! I love how life is like that. Send out a strand of love, it is there in your reality sending its own strand of vibrancy back atcha less than 24 hours later!!

      We are so magnetic!!! (Big chocolaty grin)

      Your sharing prompted a visual within me. Thank you for that!! Now lets see if I can put it into a cohesive communication….

      We have been that singular planetary seed in the every evolving garden of life. Each planted in their own way, in their own time, within their own growing season. Each harvest allowed the planting of the others… time lapsed as needed for all of humanity.

      This garden… Shambhala… it truly is a communal garden. …geez, you opened a door within me that is going to be a whole other blog…tomorrow.

      Phew….. thank you for the floodgate! Beats the hell outta the sediment!!
      ((((((HUGZ))))) filled with wonder and joy,
      Lisa

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      • Dear Lisa,

        Thank’s :), for the “strand of love”. I will puring it out to ALL THAT IS.

        When i walked our dog this morning, i came by the place where the sandstone was from. It’s good to know it arrived in one piece.
        You know, it is not a very solid one. Most likely it will merge with the environment after some time. Then all becomes ONE – UNITED.

        From wikipedia:
        Sandstone (sometimes known as arenite) is a clastic SEDIMENTARY rock

        Don’t be too attached to the sediments, just let them pass by on the way out.

        a

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  3. Ah, Lisa,

    I am so happy for you! And grateful to know you… and so thrilled by your progress. Soon all the sacrifices will be rewarded…

    There is much hope for your family as well, they just remain unaware of it right now. You are the way-shower and had to go ahead to break trail for the rest. That can be a lonely path, richly rewarding, but lonely.

    Soon many others will be awakened as the seeds of your efforts find validation where they fall on and begin to sprout in the fertile hearts of those who are ready to awaken within the field.

    The moment is now, the power is you. I will love hearing what happens next.
    It has become cliched in light worker circles, but it is still very true nonetheless: We Are The Ones We Have Been Waiting For!

    Love Light & Angel Hugs!

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    • (((HUGZ)))) Shaunie,

      My life truly is so rewarded, in so many ways… just that stubborn sediment at the bottom allows me to forget now and again lol.

      Indeed, WE are the power, the change and the way forward!! Hurray for us!! Hurray for humanity!!

      I love ya Shaunie… more big ole (((HUGZ))) to ya!!
      Lisa

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  4. Lisa,
    Similar things are happening with me. On Valentine’s Day I felt more blissful than in a long time, actually able to tolerate my family that I, too, often piss off (as well as my coworkers) for just being me. And then my computer overheated, I literally smelled burning. But then, I, too knew what to do about it. And now all is fine like it never happened. And the last couple of days have been muck and crying and apathy all over again. I was in bed with my Netflix, too, my choice being old episodes of “The Love Boat.” Just that theme song makes me happy. I am feeling much better today. I’m eager to see what this next week brings, and if I’m lucky, it might be the end of the hot flashes (aka full body sweats). ..although…seems like that will go on till the equinox.
    Hugs from afar!

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    • Hi Cheryl (((HUGZ)))) out to you!

      My Netflix of choice right now is “Lost” I am actually surprised how much I love this series! lol. Ohhh hot flashes… well we have moved into the belly of the fire… and we are burning up the last of our muck! yay???

      I have every intention of being blown out of the fire towards the end of Feb and strolling across that bridge… joyfully and effortlessly. At least, that is my intention… we will see how it goes!!

      Big big ((((HUGZ))) back atcha…
      Lisa

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      • Lisa,
        I watched every episode of “Lost” (back when I had TV, ha ha) and would have crumbled if I had missed a show or seen it out of sequence (which as you know cannot be tolerated). By the time you get to the series finale, you’ll be crying buckets. It ended very beautifully and I think only the enlightened can see all the hidden messages in the plot lines. I wonder if the writers really knew what they were creating, or if it was channelled thru them.

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  5. Hi Lisa,

    The book “Mass Dreams of the Future” (written by Chet B. Snow) , I read that one too, it is really a good one. Currently I and a group are doing on mutual dreaming. We all created light ships, to heal, to create and so on, and we are doing a great job as we compare our dreams we had have. It takes place every Saturday. It is a really fabulous experience.

    http://spirittrainchronicles.com/galactic-fleet/

    Namaste Lisa

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  6. Hi Lisa,

    You sound like you are doing a really good job
    with your clearing the gunk …

    Haven’t seen much of you at Lightworkers, so dropped
    by to say Hello and hope you are really well ..

    Love and blessings and Big Hugs to You from
    Eve LeFay
    xxxxx

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    • Hi Eve LeFay… big big (((HUGZ))) to you and thank you so much. I have learned how to clear and go… that lingering in the gunk… sux!!

      It took 5 people (true story) to have me exiled from Lightworkers channeling… maybe 5 others can bring me back!! lol

      I love ya and really really do miss my time on Lightworkers.
      More ((((HUGZ)))))
      Lisa

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  7. Hi Lisa,

    It’s really nice to hear from you and to read your blog … Your experiences
    are very similar to some I have had … I ‘met’ Horus too and also saw
    a ‘creative-eye’ float from my right side to my left and then back again
    through my right etc. It was quite a while ago now, so it is really good
    to read of it happening to someone else in detail. This is the first time
    I have heard it from anyone else …

    Sorry to hear about your problem with Lightworkers … Hope you find a
    way back in there if that is what you want …

    I’ll drop by this blog now and again and say a Big Hi to you Lisa and let
    you know if we experience anything the same again …

    Bye the way, I FELT Horus’s Big Beak give me a beaky-non-romantic-kiss
    on the lips one time … like your experience with the Catholic priest type figure, Horus walked up to me and ‘beaked’ me, just being funny and cute …

    Have fun too working out what the heck is really going on with all of this
    stuff …

    Love and Blessings to You
    from
    Eve
    xxxx

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  8. thanks.very good blog and very good share.

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