Since yesterday was a day off for me, as soon as I finished my blog I decided to take a dive into the deep end of my tub. It is unmistakable my life is changing and changing in ways I never could have or would have foreseen, I want insight!! Well, the insight I got yesterday, was not exactly what I was hoping for, but man oh man, it made this game of life a whole lot clearer to understand.
Let’s start with choice points, since this is the focal point that started my day. When I went into meditation, once again, I was having a hard time finding that connection point until I finally said “would you have mercy on this girl, I need some help please.” The only thing I was shown was a large image of myself, looking more like a child than a 50 something adult, wearing a bright yellow dress floating above the ground. All this wasn’t strange enough, my eyes could not help but be captivated by this billowing energy coming out of my solar plexus. Kinda like this:
(Forgive the humbleness of the image lol) My only question was… what the hell is that?? I knew it was me, but what does this have to do with the price of eggs in china?? Did I spring a big ass leak?? That’s all I got to see and nothing was answered in my swim, it all started unfolding in understanding and detail after I got out of the bath. However, I was once again, advised to go for a ride, this advisement came after I asked them to please, please let the lottery ticket I have in play (the cash 5 roadrunner one) come in, it will take a lot of the stress off, please. The advisement was, take a drive and find the timelines where that was an outcome. Shit, can’t you just do it for me…. paaa—-lease!!! ….Nope. …Dammit.
So I get out of the tub, house cleaning once again put on the back burner but an oil change and tire rotation on the front burner. I poured me some Lucky Charms for breakfast and sat down and pondered that strange image and actually got a broad spectrum reply that I think we will all appreciate the understanding.
There are times in our lives, when our choice points are unmistakable, as the one I am in. This understanding applies to what would appear to us as the smaller ones as well, but since I am currently in a life changing one, this is how the understanding came. The winds of change!! When the winds of change arrive there was one of two ways it will present itself. Until yesterday, I always thought that the best case scenario is having the winds at your back, not so much!! But I will explain that in a moment.
When we are presented with a choice point, most people start looking in their rolodex of past experiences to assimilate how it or something like it worked out previously then start to create their choices based on that understanding. If the past experience was challenging or had any unpleasantness around it, most people will start to release the choice point at hand as something unfavorable and that is when the winds of change start wrapping around your back… pushing you forward. The more resistance we have towards a choice point, with the winds of change now pushing you harder, often times, it creates a digging into the ground, getting stuck if you will and creating a lot of drag around the energy field of one’s life. How does that saying go… “what we resist, persists.”
This is when the real test of the pudding comes into play. When we are about to repeat something similar to our past, but with a whole new energy field potential. Of course, because of my current situation, I must use my mother as my personal example, since it is quite real, but think of it as a job opportunity, a move, someone asking to come back into your life, you desiring to renew something that was once (appearing) broken, the scenarios are wide and deep.
When that day my daughter told me of my mother’s living conditions, the past did not even come into mind, at all. Not even for a second. Of course, I was still dancing with the fact that contact has been made with my mother after 20 long years. So with the heart wide open in joy and the stark reality being presented, action was the only thing in my heart, the mind itself, not even present.
This partners you with the wind itself. It is a living tool that billows out in front of you, clearing any obstacles that may be or have been presented for safe passage into the alteration of the life path. Action versus re-action.
Remember, we all have the ability to partner as the force of nature. Being the tornado sure as hell has got to beat being torn apart by the tornado!! IMHO anywayz 😉
So as I understood that billowing energy out of my crazy looking form… I was given a little life review that made this choice that I had already made, one of the most important choices of my life and how so many other choice points in my life, was leading to this moment. The sharing of this outwards is important and I hope it helps at least one person understand how our entire lives has been set up for a very particular confluence of realities/energies.
When I was about 11 years old, I was living with my mother and catty corner from our house there lived this old lady named Violet. She was a bag lady, tho not homeless at all, she dressed scruffy, was dirty, always pushed a shopping cart and loaded the contents of her daily finds into her house. The children of my neighborhood was throw stones at her, call her names, taunt her in such negative ways and my heart would just break for her. I never did anything to stop if, but I would sure as hell never participate in it. Instead, I would talk to her as a friend. Once, she even invited me into her house. I was horrified. Keeping in mind, my mother was a clean freak and every thing had a place and nothing was ever out of place in our house, ever. In Violet’s house, there were black trash bags all over the place, stuff upon stuff and everywhere and the house was filthy. I never heard of hoarding before, but Violet was a hoarder.
As she and I developed an unseemly relationship, Thanksgiving was at hand, I begged my mother to please let Violet eat with us, she will be all alone and I really liked her. It took a lot of begging but surprisingly enough, my mother agreed.
When I was in my young 20’s the local paper did a story, again it was thanksgiving time, on this older lady who was a shut in. She had no one to visit her, no one to celebrate thanksgiving with and no food or money to have her own thanksgiving. My heart broke for her. I didn’t have much, my babys were only like one and two years old, but I had a turkey and the trimmings and room at my thanksgiving table. I contacted the newspaper, was put in touch with the lady who wrote the article and told her I would love to have her for thanksgiving and become her friend. The reporter contacted the lady, the lady was very much up for it, sadly tho, neither one of us had a car and at that time, me and my mother were not talking (we spent most of our lives together, estranged) so it never happened because neither had a car nor cab money.
During this same period, there was an ad that was always on the radio about an “adopt a grandparent” program at one of the nursing home in a city near where I lived. I only had my son at this time, and again me and my mother were in one of our silent periods so i decided to volunteer for the program with my son. He was about 4 months old. I would take two city buses to get to where the couple of ladies that were going to be our grandparents lived and I always stopped at the local bakery to get them something sweet to eat with my food stamps. They enjoyed my son so much, the love, the brightness that came back into their eyes… It was much more challenging for me to keep up with than I ever dreamed so it only lasted a few moment (I was 100% on welfare and didn’t always have bus money.)
In my 40’s I worked in an assisted living home, the majority of people who lived there, were abandoned by their families and rarely if ever got visitors. The people who ran/owned the place were not in this business for the people, it was all about the money. By this time, i was very much on my spiritual path and started heaping out tons of love, of hugs. I realized just how powerful a hug can be, how much people need to feel love. It doesn’t matter if you are living alone or in the mix of 20 people all day long like in the assisted living home, it’s the love, not just the bodies, that transform everything.
Many people have an easier time helping someone they don’t know, than someone who may have created them tremendous hurt and pain in their life. It’s the re-action that takes place. A past series of emotional memories collide with present circumstance. A collusion of energies. Secret and to the human in choice, could seem very deceptive because we do not always know why something represents itself and that too is on purpose.
What I will never know, is the difference of experience. However, my team, after this little life review, explained to me that had I been reactive, brought up anything of the past emotional field to taint the choice, things would be flowing and creating quite differently.
How many times in our readings spirit seems so damn sketchy on details. They will let you know that something is coming up that is going to create twists and turns, sudden choice points, but give us zero details about what the hell that is. Pisses me off really. Not that anyone on the other side of the veil cares about that!! But, now I fully understand it and appreciate it all more than ever. Had even a month ago, my team hinted that my mother would reenter my life and need assistance, I would have had plenty of time to dig up the past, play with it, think about it and start shutting a door that I have no clue what would be on the other side. This is why spirit says so often, knowing something before hand can and often will change the instantaneous choice, even if it is the best thing in our lives, we can avoid it and go around it.
They also tied all this understanding in with what we think of as timelines. For all of those waiting for that relationship or divine counter-part to show up, this ties into why it may seem to be taking for ever.
This moment that we are now in with my mother was contingent of a lot of things coming together. First, several years ago, my daughter had to make the choice to move from Texas to California. She had to get pregnant (something that docs told her will never happen… for as long as she stayed in Texas, it wouldn’t have. It’s an energy system thing) and have her baby, break up with the baby’s dad and then, doing something radical… going on a several month, cross country road trip with a 4 month old!! She wanted everyone to meet this amazing bundle of joy, for which, I am eternally grateful she doesn’t give a shit what anyone thinks of her choices!! She also had to have the rift with her paternal uncle in Mississippi to allow the sudden change of venue to include my mother.
There was a lot of organizing going on from spirits side. At any one point an alternate choice could have been made, which would have changed all the outcomes like dominoes falling in the backwards direction, and those pesky winds of change would be placed at the back side to relay the patterns needed.
However, since this all unfolded perfectly, spirit even timed the trigger of my mother’s stroke to align with all that was unfolding under the currents of life we just cannot see… on purpose. I promise you, without my mother’s stroke being a key factor in my action, I probably would have spent time organizing help for her day to day needs from here without getting involved directly with her like I am now.
I have heard spirit say so many times, the timelines are unknown to them because anytime something involves even just one other person and free will is always at play, that person could zig instead of zagging, which changes opportunities and timelines. Even when all the energies are leaning into a particular timeline and it is shown in a reading, someone in play can suddenly make an alternate choice and the scenario does not play out like it could.
Ohhh, there is another little tidbit that I did get in my meditation. I knew a relationship would soon me showing up in my life. Of course, I was so hoping/expecting this relationship to have a penis and none of my biological blood running in their veins. But I was reminded of my feeling when I went to the practice party at dance class, of really learning to move in rhythm with another. Never in my wildest dreams would I expect my mother to be a dance partner!! However, what I am hearing is, if we never really learn to dance in new ways with what appears to be old, we will never fully get to the engagement of what could happen with (my focus —>) a divine counter-part. Well, my mother and I couldn’t be more “counter” from each other!! Let the dance begin!! It is going to be a very interesting two step!!
I spent about an hour and a half on the phone with my mother yesterday morning before heading out to the big wide world. There are many really good changes in her personality I would have never anticipated. Her own humility for one. My mother is… has been, a major narcissist. She had created so many facades around her that you really needed the laser beam eye sight of superman to see thru any of them and the truth beneath it all.
My team explained to me that, again, she shares half of my DNA. So the changes, the deep inner heart clearing I engaged in for years in my bathtub created a similar scenario for her, it just came at her differently. I was gutted from the inside out, she was gutted from the outside in. This is how mirrors work, or better yet… Newton’s 3rd Law of Motion:
A force is a push or a pull that acts upon an object as a results of its interaction with another object. Forces result from interactions! As discussed in Lesson 2, some forces result from contact interactions (normal, frictional, tensional, and applied forces are examples of contact forces) and other forces are the result of action-at-a-distance interactions (gravitational, electrical, and magnetic forces). According to Newton, whenever objects A and B interact with each other, they exert forces upon each other. When you sit in your chair, your body exerts a downward force on the chair and the chair exerts an upward force on your body. There are two forces resulting from this interaction – a force on the chair and a force on your body. These two forces are called action and reaction forces and are the subject of Newton’s third law of motion.
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
The statement means that in every interaction, there is a pair of forces acting on the two interacting objects. The size of the forces on the first object equals the size of the force on the second object. The direction of the force on the first object is opposite to the direction of the force on the second object. Forces always come in pairs – equal and opposite action-reaction force pairs.
So, in my conversation with my mom yesterday, I really got a birds eye view of her body condition. I knew she had back surgeries in the past, I couldn’t remember why. She has disintegrating discs in her back that keeps her back in constant pain. I cannot tell you how much it broke my heart to hear her say how much pain she is in because she is out of advil and tylenol and knowing what I got for her wont get there until Thursday. If any of you feel inclined, please send your energies to my mothers spine for comfort. Thank you.
She also explained that she does get raging diarrhea, especially when she gets hit with depression and it just flies out of her and onto the floor. Her back hurts her too much to even clean it up. So her fanatical cleanliness has ceased. It’s kind of ironic really, I have learned to share all my shit, the deep darkest of secrets outwards for anyone to see and my mother lives within her own and has come to accepting terms with it. I like that, a lot really. It allows so much openness, not caring about what others think is the most freeing what to Live.
I took a few moments to catch up on some emails and facebook comments and I soooo freakin loved what ran thru me. So many people think I am changing my mother’s life, and of course, that is true but as I was reading these comments my team said ohhhh no, it is your life that is being changed and blessed. This feeling was soooo amazing, so heart expanding and dare I say, filled with excited anticipation!!
So as I learned about my mother I headed out to the big wide world, audiobook rambling away. Let me tell you, I love love love the synchronicity of where I pick back up listening to this book (which I only listen to it in the car) and Phil (the guy being hypnotised) started talking about yet another world where they are seeding things, doing genetic things… going very much into what I shared yesterday. And I thought of my mothers conditions… and got soooooo excited.
So many of the ET sessions started to fall in place in my minds eye, working at a central point as opposed to working outwards. Meaning, we can change timelines, dimensions, funnel energies here for an outcome instead of traveling outwards for the experience. Somethings are much easier to see and understand than to put into freakin words!!
So on my way home, I decided to play with my lottery ticket and the timelines. Man oh man, I really had to force myself to get emotionally invested in winning any sort of money from the lottery. I had to bring in the repairs my mother needs, the unpaid June bills, the incomprehensible July bills getting paid. Its funny, no matter what I did, or how I tried to do it, I could not get emotionally invested in the money itself. I even tried to lean into previous lottery wins, when the lottery club I owned won $13,000 in the florida fantasy 5 (same kind of lottery I have a running ticket on) or my mother winning $200,000 in the PA cash 5 (again, same lottery format.) There was no real emotional connection I could arrive at, not like the week before asking for the timelines to change where my mother loved me again. Keeping in mind, it was not to personally feel my mother’s love, I do not need that experience in my life, I already know she loves me at the only level that matters, the soul. My desire was to partner with her in my plans and not have to kidnap her, which I would have done.
After much effort and frustration, my team chimed in and said, you know money would alter the opportunity at hand. You would make choices that would alter what is happening… such as getting my mother set up in her own life sooner than the needed time for the experiences to unfold. I promised them I wouldn’t… but… well, let’s just say, I have done my best with all that. We shall see how it all works out!!
On that note, have an amazing day. Happy father’s day to everyone.
Lisa Gawlas www.mysoulcenter.com/bookreading.html
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