Posted by: Lisa Gawlas | November 2, 2012

In The Face of Duality There is ALL-WAYS Hope!


Boy, did duality show up at my door yesterday!  I actually had completely forgotten I was awaiting lab results from the thingie that was removed from my back last week, at least until my Doctor called me personally yesterday about 3 in the afternoon.  I had just come out of a bath meditation, helping a client remove an unneeded, self-created, closed door at the threshold of Oct. / Nov.,  keeping her from the lake of joy that is November.  I will get to that interesting meditation… later. (Meaning, tomorrow)

I have a tendency to live in such a state of excitement, even when people on the other end of my phone line aren’t feeling very excited about what they are currently experiencing in their lives.   There is always something bigger and better brewing from it all.

So when my Doctor told me that the thingie on my back was a Level 4 malignant melanoma that had ulcerated, I think at first, her words and her incredible kindness and concern, just kinda hit dead air space within me at reception.  She had also mentioned some other aspects of that thingie that my head was just not wrapping around in that moment.  But every bad thing you would hope did not show up in a biopsy… was there.  I am within the 2% of people who get this kind of news with any sort of skin cancer.

Before she even called me, she was already on the phone making arrangements for me to see a melanoma specialist and he had agreed to take on my case, even tho I have no money and no insurance.  I suppose, I do have some good karma coins in what could appear as some really bad news.  And I am not going to pretend, it is indeed, by all appearances, really bad news.

She had told me they want to do a full body scan on me, to see where else this bad boy had traveled to in my body.  It has, after all, been growing and deepening on me since February 2011. And I let it!!

After I hung up with my Doctor, I trolled google to understand some of the things she told me.  Things like ulceration, cell division, level 4… at first, I got confused between a level 4 and stage 4.  Looking at the statistics of a stage 4 melanoma took to a place I never thought I would go… especially on this hallelujah day of November 1st!!  The 5 year survival rate was 10-14%.  Really?  That sounds pretty freakin dire to me.  I really only got sad for a minute… sad enough to let tears run thru as I thought of my children and grandson.  I can’t imagine how this would affect them and all the things I wanted to teach my grandson.

The more read about stage 4, I realized there is no way this could be what she meant by a level 4… and god knows the internet loves to focus on worse case scenario first.  We do not know if it has metastasized yet.  So what does level 4 mean. My Doctor did say it is the worst level I could be at, but what does that mean??

It is funny really, I have been asking the universe each and every day to put new words in my mouth, since they are constantly pulling out old ones with no replacement.  These are not the words I was expecting… clark vs breslow, which level was she talking about?  Metotic rate… all she said it was very high.  I really don’t want to know these words… but now I do.

Once I consumed enough words and their definitions to make my head spin… I just sat with this news for a moment.  I had to decide how am I going to feel about this.  At first I was just numb.  But I did manage some humor when my doctor suggested I quit smoking… I simply said… are you crazy???  I don’t drink, I don’t have wild sex, I am not giving this up while receiving the worst news of my life!!  She understood and left it at “I have pills to help you quit when your ready.”

Ya know you have a great doctor when she kept asking me of I had any questions, I said I need to sit with this first and understand why I have this.  Just as quickly she said “you know, some people think it can be from a past life.”  I LOVE my doctor!!

I sat and thought about these last two years.  I knew February of last year something was not right in Denmark… but I did nothing.  I use a very hand excuse for not dealing… I have no money and I have no insurance, in America, this combination alone can kill you.

When I was back in Virginia last year for several months, I did find a program that would allow me close to free medical, so I had a Doctor look at this.  She wasn’t too worried and told me I need to see a dermatologist, but couldn’t find one or the funding to send me to one.  If she wasn’t too worried, I decided I am not going to be either.  Had this been dealt with last year, it would be a non-invasive issue.  But it wasn’t because I didn’t push.

Since that time, this thing had doubled in size and height .. and was just really gross looking.  I had spent many a meditation talking to it… asking, I have a feeling, the wrong question.  I had assumed… as we all do, that there must be something in me needing to be addressed.  A hidden negative emotion, something eating at me… there has to be something I have not found within my own emotional field to clean up.  Yet… time and time again, my thingie, my body was simply say.. there is nothing.

So then, I need to ask the correct question… and I need to ask it now!!

Since my mind was officially going every which way but loose…I decided to pick up my handy dandy pendulum and alphabet paper, and ask Michael about all this.  My first and biggest question to him was “Do I have cancer elsewhere in my body,” his reply…. “yes.”  Ok… I am not going to let that shake me since it was not shaking him!!  So then, my next important question… what is my lesson with it?  Talk about an unexpected reply… my loving hunk of an angel swings out “Time goes places rivers can’t”  Really?  This is what you are going to tell me?  What does this have to do with cancer… he swings out… “EVERYTHING.”

So I did what I do best, I sat on the couch and pondered.

The one thing I knew for sure… I am actually quite joyful at this moment.  I am not scared at all.  My kids on the other hand… worried, as worried gets.

On my couch is also the new book I am reading “Proof of Heaven.”  I picked it up and thought about my own interest in reading and listening to people who live, work and breathe science and their mind opening experiences with near death.  The man who wrote this book is a neurosurgeon who had, what appeared by all text books, a rare and deadly form of E Coli Meningitis that was literally eating his brain…. rendering him in a coma for a week, allowing him a much needed trip back Home.

While holding this book and pondering my own self… I also thought of how profound experience of  Jill Bolte Taylor as she went on to talk about experience of being aware during her stroke.  The fact that she is a brain scientist… amazing.

I suddenly realized, these were not illnesses caused by issues… but a part of a life plan path that would create a deeper, stronger awareness in the field of science… especially as it relates to the brain and consciousness.

I thought about my first appointment with my own Doctor back in August to look at this.  Of course she recommended I see a dermatologist  but there was none in the sliding scale system I was now a part of (which to me became affordable health and dental care for 6 months.)  She no sooner suggested it than she looked at me and said, you don’t have the money to see one do you… nope!  Hence, why I am still carrying this wonder on my back!!

She said she didn’t have the materials on hand to remove it, but would order them and do the removal there.  Fine by me.  I drug my heals…. again… about getting that next appointment scheduled… all the way til October.  I wasn’t really worried about it at all.  Especially when she looked at it and said she didn’t think it was cancer, but a growth of cell cluster that is non-threatening.  Considering I have had psoriasis off and one since I was 17 years old, I figured these must be kissing cousins.  I really was not worried.

When I finally made my next appointment, she had forgotten to order what was needed to do this little removal.  So we rescheduled again… to last Thursday, when it finally came off!!

So I had to ponder the fact that, maybe, there is something more to this experience.  Since the summer, since the acceleration of energy on this planet, that thing on my back seemed to accelerate its own growth rate too.  It changed rapidly over these last couple months.

The more I thought about all of this, I actually got excited.  What if this was the only way to push me out of my comfort zone… to explore new places that I would otherwise not even go.  This has got to be a gift that we all can learn from!!

I am absolutely not afraid of death, I do not see death as worse case scenario at all.  I do love a good challenge, and I have a feeling, I have indeed grown one!!  Game on!!

So with that, I am actually excited about this leg of my journey.  Weirdly excited actually!!  No matter what may be lurking in my body… I can “see” and “hear” and follow direction from spirit.

I thought about healing last evening.  When someone gets dealt what looks like a devastating hand… our knee jerk reaction is to send healing energy.  Why?  Crazy I would even ponder such a thing… since I am one of those who do just that.  It comes from fear!!!  Whoda thunk that?  But in my wondering moments last evening… that was so apparent.  Good intentions… but from a place of worry.  So, I am going to ask, please don’t send me any healing energy… love yes… joy… absolutely…

I have decided to approach this in a unique manner.  I will be getting a call today to set up a full body scan to see what my inner’s look like.  I am not going to do a thing until we get the playing board called my body.     Once I fully know what the game board looks like, feels like… there is no doubt the playing pieces will be presented… and how to work in Michael’s energy of time and rivers!!

I really am, kinda weirdly excited.  I feel such a tremendous growth spurt at hand… one that could not come any other way.

Every THING in life is a gift… if you dare to simply open it with joy!!

In Joy, Gratitude and Wonder!!

(((((HUGZ)))) of Heaven all around us and within us!!

Lisa Gawlas   www.mysoulcenter.com/energy_readings.html

I started hearing this song the moment I hung up with my Doctor!!  I had loved it when it first came out… and now… well, lets just say I love it even more!!


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  1. […] http://www.lisagawlas.wordpress.c0m link to original article […]

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  2. What an amazing time for these treasures we are uncovering in the very places we least expect. I love you!

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  3. Sending love and joy Lisa!

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  4. Feeling the magnitude of the gift……in your sharing and offering others a new way to perceive things. You are a pioneer of a new path, not the “oh no!” fear path but rather, the curious path…….I am excited to discover the gift that is here for me! Thank you for being this courageous pioneer and teaching us all in the process. I can feel the joy in your body!! Hugs

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  5. Hi Lisa, I wanted to share something else with you today but it will wait until tomorrows sharing. After what you have just shared with us about what you are dealing with I want to say “Dont give up on your mission”. We all have a mission and we must continue to move forward. Thier is a dark force that wants to distract us, confuse us, put us in fear, and to doubt what we came here for. Especially when we are so close to our goal and ALL of us are about to tip over the pool into the month of November. Im will to bet you Lisa that at this very moment thier have beenmany many other people, myself included, who have recieved some form of bad news unexpectedly that would cause them to weaken and to begin to go into a negative state of being. Im here to tell you to stay positive and know that you are only getting attacked because you are almost home. You have recieved the bad news so now forget about it and get back on your horse and continue to “ride” ol’ Girl. Keep right on moving forward. Some may think Im being insensitive but that is not the case. I know how these dark forces like to trip us up and try to bring us to our knees just when we are about to get our breakthrough. You are almost home, Lisa. Closer than you have ever been in your life. Block out all thats trying to break your focus and keep moving. Dont look to the left or right just look straight ahead. Wishing you all the best, Roy

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  6. Sending you love, Lisa. I know that you will become a great example of the “new” in the medical world and confound them all!

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  7. In some ways you have been given a gift. Many go into cancer with fear and dread yet end up coming out the other end a whole new person. They gain so much from the experience! I hate that you must go through this and I send all my love and prayers, but I also know you will use this to your benefit and become a whole new person as well. The light will guide you there. Take care Lisa and think positive…Blessings…VK
    http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/04/23/dr-nicholas-gonzalez-on-alternative-cancer-treatments.aspx

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  8. I wanted to share this video of Stacy Westfall riding bareback and without any tack (bridle, halter, rope, nothing) to the Tim McGraw song…. I’ve always thought of the human representing the horse and our soul being the rider……this is the perfect video to reflect horse and rider/human and soul being in perfect balance and harmony…..I cry every time I watch it……..and as I was thinking of sharing this here, I was reminded of the woman in your blog that was thrown by her horse…… I was thinking that the human side of her was “bucking” (or so startled that…) what the soul wanted her to do or was trying to lead her to……

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    • Whoops! That shared all her videos…… I was just wanting this one! And also note the name of the horse is Wizard’s Baby Doll…….

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    • Dammit!! I can’t get the correct video to play……. let me try again, lol, sorry!

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      • Okay, the link works…….. the other 2 (again, sorry about that!) that are showing up as video screens are ALL of her videos on her youtube channel….. I was trying to only share the ONE video of her bareback/bridle~less ride…… which this link will take you to.

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      • Sometimes Wendy…we gotta try a lot of different openings/links to get to the “right” working one… What a wonder-ful, tear evoking video!! Thank you sooo much for sharing it. I loved teh dance with the horse and his bow and her strength after loosing her dad 24 days prior. We all can gain something from it. (((HUGZ))) of deep gratitude and love!!

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  9. Lisa I would love to send you reiki. Reiki is not about outcome. The energy only goes to the highest good of all concerned and also it does not come from me but rather through me… I simply get out of the way and let it go to where it needs to go. The highest good of this situation could be something beyond any of (y)our wildest dreams.
    So … if you are ok … I would love to send you reiki.
    I am sending you love too of course that is a given.
    I love your spirit.
    Eileen

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    • Hi Eileen ((((HUGZ)))

      First, let me thank you sooo incredibly much for your desired gift, I truly appreciate the heart and soul of you. If I may ask not to send anything other than joy-full love as I tip toe into this brand new game that now seems to be mine to play.

      I do not wish to alter, expand, release or disturb in anyway what is happening in this moment. Kinda like trying to look at an x-ray with a chunk missing, I may miss something that was vitally important to the process and understanding.

      The blessing here… I have winds of love blowing into me from every direction, that is uplifting and exciting and motivating!! Very very motivating.

      I just also want to put this out there too… I have zero fear with this. It is not a dark entity at all… it is a gift of Light that must be explored, understood and approached in a whole new way…. we are, after all, on a whole new playing field. As a precious friend reminded me on facebook a little while ago… Archangel Michael’s so constant words “We’ve got your back” flawlessly… he always has. And now that it is my literal back that needs having… I think he knew something wayyyy before. My heart is full and excited to follow this journey and learn… share!!

      I love and appreciate you ALL soooooooo much!! Thank you for the winds of love that have permeated my every space!!
      (((((HUGZ)))) right back atcha!!
      Lisa

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      • Sending you bucket loads of joy-full Love Lisa

        So much love & gratitude for all the gifts that you bring us.

        Love & Joy

        Eileen

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  10. Oh … one minute out from 11.11 😉
    Love ya!

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  11. Thank you for sharing Lisa. It’s just a test, which I think you’ve already passed with flying colours! Once in the 5th dimension, we’ll automatically heal ourselves – the high vibration can’t and won’t sustain anything of a lower vibration like cancer. We’re so close to 5D now, don’t allow yourself to slip back into 3D! Sending you BIG (((Hugs))) full of LOVE and JOY!

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  12. W-hat a GreaT lil co-mm-UNITY of SmilinG SouL-S (here) !!! -))
    = WeLL dONe LISA !! -))

    FirsT thank YOU !! … fOr BEinG YOU LisA !!
    … no FeaR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    = wHy chOOse only OnE s-ID-e … of Duality // PolaritY ?? -))
    (( … or worse; IgnorE reality all-together ?? = IgnorancE ! -))
    = tHe “only” RE-as-ON(s) WE ALL ExperiencE misery + suffering !!
    = SEEinG only ‘half’ (mAx) of RealitY … “AS it IS” ))

    ThE energy (InneR-G) supporting LIFE, on & IN ALL LeVeL(s) (dimensions), “disPLAYs” the qualities of …
    INFINITE LOVE, COMPASSION, SYMPATHETIC KINDNESS & JOY
    “+” … ITs ALL ((hELd toGETher)) with INfiniTE EQUANIMITY.

    … this =
    HoW misery & suffering cAn aRISE, fROm such BEaUtiFUL energy ?? -)
    (((an aSidE = … WE’re ALL “”SO”” B-less-ED !!!!!!!!!!! -)))))))))))))

    = INFINITE INcludES … “”EVERYTHING”” !!! (A.Micheal’S message ? -)
    … INCLUDING, ‘misery & suffering’ !! -))

    AnyWayS … LOL !! -))
    ThE reASon i write today = yOUR ailment is INSIDE + OUTSIDE = cause + effect = action + reaction … etc. etc. ! -)))
    LisA, you’ve gOt the InneR(G) wORk ‘licked’ = HeaD ‘firmly’ WraPpeD aROUND w-hat is haPPenINg IN-S-ID-E !! -))
    … and, i have a piece of diaMONd ‘StuDdeD’ IN-form-at-i-ON for YoU (+ EverYONE else ! -)), http://jimhumble.biz/basic-science-of-mms-chlorine-dioxide.html#MMS2
    = its HigH T-i’mE WE l-ET go of ALL disEASE = LisA, you’re LeadinG tHe wAy ‘inside’ ((S-how-in-G yOUR “PatH” = aWEsoME !! -)) … ‘here’ is an opport-UNITY to allow fOr EQuilibriUM.

    … i have extensive ExperiencE with MMS2, and would BE “VerY HappY” to help ‘anyone’ suffering with ANY physical disEASE. ThiS ‘treatment’ can be summarized by saying, “IT FLOODS OUR BODY WITH OXYGEN + IN THE “EXACT” WAY OUR BODY WORKS = OUR BODIES PRODUCE THIS “EXACT” FORMULA ((HYPOCHLORUS ACID)), “”BUT”” WHEN WE N-EE-D IT THE MOST … OUR BODIES ARE PRODUCING A ‘HISTORICAL LOW AMOUNT’; BE-CAUSE, WE CURRENTLY LIVING IN A TOXIC SOUP (ExperiencinG weapons of MaSS DistractioN !! -)

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    ThiS KnowledgE is VerY PowerfuL & very FrustratinG !!! -)
    … i have taken MMS2 in capsule form over 300 times, and felt the power of oxygen, cleanse my w-hole physical framework = GREAT !! i have suffered from the ‘common cold’ & ‘flu’ … for a small handful of hOURs, since finding this information (& ACTING ON IT) … it ‘saved my MoM’s LifE !!!!!! … and she will be happy to tell YoU, her story (her name is DebbiE ! -)).

    … my point is this, don’t be disappointed if you find the people who ‘you’ k-NOW aRe suffering, … ‘chOOse’ to continue suffering ?? = despite my 100% PositivE ExperiencE, with ManY willing MMS 2 participants (i have WITNESSED, allergies BEinG”CURED” = YES, allergies are C-U’R-ABLE !! -)) … = first hand evidence !! .. but, … but, … but, )))

    i hope this helps ? -))

    BUT, MORE SO … if anyONE would like some ‘guidance’ with the MMS2 (i have no experience with MMS1 … i hear it ‘tastes’ awful = LOL !! … i don’t want HelP if it ‘tastes’ bad !! -)), … I’M AVAILABLE !! -))

    BE HappY !! -))

    ThanK-s aGAIN LISA !!!!!!!
    … fEElINg VERY IN-s-PHI-ReD !!

    in love
    shawn

    ps … here is some mORe info on MMS 2: http://jimhumble.biz/protocol-4000.html
    … and here is some youtube info: http://www.youtube.com/JimHumbleLive

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  13. Dearest Chickadee,
    You are amazingly brave! For you to face what most would call Fear, without any…..and to share your feelings about this new journey with all of us, is nothing short of Unconditional LOVE! LOVE for Life, Learning and for everyone who’s life you touch by sharing.
    You have SOOOOOO many people who are sending HUGE LOVE to You!
    I AM in awe of your courage and strength and just want you to know that you are my HERO!!!!!

    I AM truly Blessed to have you in my life.

    Peace, LOVE and Fresh Veggies…..
    Camille

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  14. Sending much love. (((Lisa)))

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  15. Well Lisa.. I love you and send pure LOVE to assist your process in whatever way is best… Even though you have a plentiful supply already! Have some which is Kelly flavoured 😉 ❤

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  16. Thank you for sharing your light always all ways. I love you!

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  17. Wow, I can feel your excitement and joy in this new endeavor of your life!! Please keep us reprised of this journey, as I can also feel we will learn much through you! Lesson or not, I love the view you are taking on this, you embody the saying that we are never alone, thus never need to be afraid.

    Blessings, with ALOT of Love and Light.

    NLNL

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  18. Lisa – you are a shining light. Your words light up my computer and fill my room. I send you love. 🙂

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